Random Rhymes- I wanna run away

I wanna run away, on a rainbow to a place full of bright 
sunshine, where the flowers bloom and it never is twilight!
a place where you just can't define 
and yet everything is align
to the rays of sunlight cutting out of the skies
eclipsed by the clouds' dark ties.


Where the dew seems to linger
a little bit longer
despite the breaking dawn's
might, to send it away from the leaves and lawns.


I wanna swim away to sunny shores lonely
from the human touch, to watch the surf idly
as I sit back in the warm golden sands
and feel it slip through my hands
while I watch the moon take its place
besides the stars and planets from outer space.


I wanna fly away to alcoves in
the snow peaked mountains, for a spin.
Watching the one place on earth that will not be fenced
for security, for defense, for offence or any other pretense.

I wanna be away
from the illusion of control in anyway


-17th Feb. 2011.


I've been busy with nothing lately, everything seems to be hazy, muddled up, a lot of new topics are brought into my conscious, I think of various new topics to post on my blog but never end up writing them.


Am down with a bad cold.. that is the only health related problem that can actually make me freak out.. I don't mind being cut, scratched, burnt, any sort of aches, but Cold.. I mind very much... it kinda chokes me.. I have had this little bronchital thing in my childhood and it hasn't really gone away. Alright, I have bored you enough with illnesses, I actually hate talking about not being well. If ever I am unwell no one ever knows unless I am in a critical life or death situation in which case the poor doctors are trying to set me alright and that is about the only info you will get related to me not being well.


Yeah I hate being weak, I never complain about illnesses and if I am too bad, you simply won't see me cause i will be cooped up in my room and take an off from whatever is up for that day.. so no one has really seen me lying down .. complaining or cribbing about not being well or stuff like that.


So yeah, that's the reason I haven't been around my virtual space for such a long.

Patriotism and all that sorta thing...

A happy republic day to all.

By now, almost every Indian on facebook has made atleast a single mention about the republic day in their statuses, some stating the obvious in the form of wishes, yet others cribbing about the state of our nation. I see a lot of posts saluting our nations' soldiers and thanking them for the freedom we enjoy in our daily lives.

All of the above statements are true, but there is a huge class out there that remains to be the unsung heroes of India's success in the past few years from the time we achieved freedom.

I am talking about your and mine- fathers, mothers, uncles, aunts, grand ma's and grand pa's...

You might wonder, why mention them? They did nothing specific for this nation.. but ponder over the next few lines.

Working class,
mostly tax payers,
mostly observing state made laws,
mostly wanting nothing more than a peaceful life!

For a nation which has just received freedom, it is not enough to have burning patriotism and fighting spirit alone.

It needs willing citizens ready to do its bidding, do work for it, in any capacity possible. I am sure most of your predecessors have worked as government employees under various capacities, yet others have started their own businesses and lived what you might call very boring everyday lives, only to retire at the age of about 60.

These COMMON MEN & WOMEN are the unsung heroes of our nation, whose everyday contribution through their boringly monotonous lives have brought such stability to our nation which it required to become- today one of the most respected nations. Stability is the most essential factor to any nation looking for a glorious future and it has been established in India through the efforts of our preceding generations.

The world has seen many nation states achieve freedom only to titularly call themselves a Republic; only to be dangerously used by developed nations for their own vested interests or be doomed to slavery by its own ruling class. Many small African nations are a burning example of this.

All said and done, I pay my greatest respects and salutations to the Boring Common Man from the working classes, whose monotonous yet stable life cycles have allowed our nation achieve maximum success.

By far, we might not be the best governed, best in resources, or as such any superlatives when it comes to describing a nation.

Yet, India HAS BEEN, IS NOW and 


WILL ALWAYS BE a nation looked at 


with RESPECT!

What have I decided, what have I put myself into...

My last post ended with a 'yes I have decided' note, so what have I decided?
urrmm.. a lot many things, that's generally the way we do things, we have a lot of ideas and brainstorming takes place, then starts the process of elimination and finally one is able to look at one's decisions.

There are plans definitely, ideas... crazy ideas that need to be sorted, over a large period of time I have denied myself for what I am, and so I have not evolved at all in that sense. I have just grown in age and physique, and it's not even that great!

Cutting short the beating around the bush, I have decided that, I need to look closer at myself and try understanding my need, also start shaping up for the future, this blog, my inadvertent haircut and such other things are only pointers to the change that I wish to bring in myself.

Sometimes, however, I fear it all, like after my last post a few things happened to me, I had a kind of in the dumps day as I lost my favorite firki, spilled water on myself, wasn't able to click a simple picture of a butterfly(which I generally manage to do with some patience), stubbed my toes, hit my hand accidentally against things. If I were a believer of such things as omens, I would have had backed off this entire idea of evolving myself, it's almost as if these omens mean that I should not go ahead!

Then again I have denied myself too long, I want to live, breathe, think, speak, exclaim freely, like all other humans around me do about their desires, feelings, fears, sorrows and joys.

Too long I have been too careful, too cautious, it's killing me on the inside, to think twice before I speak, act and overall live life.

This shall be my last whining post, here on I shall post about my life. The life of Anwesha (I chose this name cause it means- 'an explorer' in sanskrit and presently that is what I am! ofcourse it isn't my true name) the explorer is off now and the quest is defined!

So what do you think, will the explorer accomplish her quest?